Digital Dentistry - Chromes

Digital Dentistry - Chromes

Case Study - Ceramics

Case Study - Ceramics

Dating, Friendship & Social Networking....

Dating is……well being a visual person i’d say lets go with this picture….

                             

Oww, look so sweet and lovely, kissing romantically in the moon light, its so nice….to some, but not to me!

Surprised? Most are! to me,this is so far from what dating really is?

To me its more of this…..

       Yes thats right its a women being shot and falling off the edge of a cliff!

I don’t have time, nor do i actually want to sift through the remnants of my shattered and ash ridden past relationships to find where my pain fear and total disbelief in any thing nice has stemmed form.

Don’t get me wrong i’m sure people fall in love and get all love ridden and happy at the site of each other in seconds but for me, meh………

I could go for the poetic things like:

• Can’t fix a broken heart!
• I can’t love its to painful!

and so on but i won’t……….i got hurt and now i’m frozen, my heart was given to a cryogenic freezing company and that’s it, its gone.

I mean, i sound synical and like an utter bitch but why do we do it?

Why do we allow ourselves to be set up for a fall, for disappointment,  suffering and heartache!

Seriously…..we don’t chop our limbs off because we know what will happen, we don’t stand in front of a car because we know what will happen but we will continue to do the dog like thing and keep going back for more.

I’ve often said and will continue to say to all of my friends that you know in the first few weeks if someone is the one for you, i do honestly and truthfully believe this. A relationship that has ended is just something that you have allowed yourself to drag out thinking that it will get better or this might change or that might change!

People don’t change they just do 3 things:

1. Die

2. Leave

3. Disappoint You

The sooner people just “get a grip” and realize this, the happier the world is going to be. No one is going to be living in a stupid dream world thinking people are actually nice and there’s such a thing as happy endings and tweeting birds!

I mean, go ahead and try, step out of your house for a brisk walk to work in order to improve your fitness level and feel good factor, listen to the birds tweeting and breath that……..*sniff sniff*………dog shit in…….that right, you stood in it because that’s what life does to you. It reals you in to let you down. 

Get this, people actually step in dog poo so much they made something up to keep you going……oh poo means money, poo means money!

Ummm no, thats life loveand mater how much you scrap and clean its always going to smell of SHIT!

I went off on a tangent sorry…………what was i saying,ah yes,dating!!

Summing it up, seriously could you catch me?

                             

                                      

Are you having an actual laugh, i’m going to tie you to my heart………never loose you………..name one friend you have never fallen out with.

I have friends that i would fuck off in a heart beat and they know this as i’m sure they would do the same to me but the main point i want to make is, when did it become ok for us to say what we truly thought and wanted to our friends!

Does friendship allow for brutal honestly, bitchy comments and a persistant stream of offensive jokes?

Maybe so but of late i’m not convinced……..shouldn’t you re frame from hurting someone if you care?

Because the comments we make and throw out for all ears to hear and eyes to see are pretty shit to be honest, my best friend is’nt really a smelly shit with a hairy arse hole, hes the best thing that ever happened to me as a kid, teeneager and grown up.

The more comfortable we become with someone it seems the more badly we treat them and the more we take them for granted and horrifically the more we feel we can say what we want to them, when we shouldn’t.

The closer you become the more you know about them, the way they think, feel and operate and what do we do, we disregard this for cheap laughs and for the fact of, “it will be ok, they don’t mind!” but will it?

For me i’ve always been an all or nothing girl……..go in feet first, bull in a china shop, heart on sleep and give it all i’ve got, emotions on show and it seems such a contrast to the person i see that deals with love and friendships.

                             

most days i feel pretty alone…

                              

 

I could go on all day about my knob jockey mates but i can’t be bothered!

                              

                                    More than half UK pensioners now on Facebook
                                     37.4 million UK adults use Facebook regularly
                                     32.1 million UK adults use YouTube regularly
                                             15.5 million UK adults on Twitter
                                             7.9 million UK adults on LinkedIn
                                               6.7 million UK adults on Flickr

                             That was taken from http://www.umpf.co.uk 

                                

I can honestly say i’m a slave to social networking, you name any social networking app and i’ve got it!

Everyday i log into facebook and want to close my account but i can’t and i don’t know why?

Many times i leave and go back but with having friends and family on it i don’t want to also having twitter i think maybe its a waste of time but i’m not sure. All i know is i’m addicted and i can’t leave….

              

I’m a slave to the keyboard, to my iphone and apps………wonder if i could go 30days with out it all……………… 

No Floss Your Loss....

I often stare out of my window and think what the hell is life all about?

I always use the word hell as i do sometimes think this life is a test, a challenge and something or someone is seeing how we do and then boooom……heaven for the ones who did OK and a re-carnation for the ones who just messed it the hell up!

Anyway, that’s enough with the deep crazy talk; cause i’d like to share some stuff with you! 

I attend Leeds Dental Institute one day a week studying for my Dental Technology Undergraduate Degree/Diploma/Piece of Paper where i’m joined by my wonderful friends Paw Paw and Small :)

Only this Thursday was very differant, this Thursday i didn’t feel so alone as i gazed out of my window on the Friday morning.

We went for lunch at the cozy cafe, Small had her normally healthy stuffs,Paw Paw made the usual unsatisfied food purchse and for once i ate something i did actually enjoy!

As we all began to tuck into our culenary delights and mouth watering beverages we began to chatter away like a set of high speed acrylic burrs about our weeks events!

During these intense conversations i can garentee one of us has:

• Cried
• Smashed something to pieces
• Swear at our work colleges untill we are blue in our actual minds
• Thought about the carrier we would truly love

As we began to chatter away something became very clear, our stories weren’t and to be honest never really have been that dissimalar to one another, we all feel were not respected, not looked after, bullied, picked on, taunted relentlessly and mercifully teased by the things we do, say and produce. 

One thing that became dramatically clear for me was that we had grown and matured so much in our environments that maybe we had lost that “thing” that would make you a women in a normal working environment, make you cry instantly, have a rational constructive debate about something, lets be mature about it and talk? but we seem to have gained the “fuck off line”  that now steps in more frequently than any thing else.

Ages ago i waited so patiently for what my higher ranking colleges had to say; the constructive critique that they would give to me in order to encourage me on my journey to becoming a wonderful ceramist…..hold on is the bow i’m wearing in my hair truly relevant to my occlusal surface, is my sparkly eye make up effecting my emergence profile, does my nail polish really effect my contact areas! And last of all i can’t sound like that cause that noise your making right there just isn’t human, for the record your impression is rubbish!  

When i think back 4 years ago i personally was so excited about my new journey through dentistry, polite professional people i would be working with; my lord…how wrong was I but alas i’m not alone :)

So lets start from the beginning, i truly 100% unconditionally believe that when my boss looks at me he sees this….

                                          

                                       

…No your not mistake this is a chimp with a banana! Here i’m not stressing that i have a love of Bananas, i’m saying i truly believe that most days he sees me as a chip…which makes me laugh uncontrollably.

He gives me tasks to complete backed up with saying like:

1. “Don’t disappoint me!”
2. “Make me proud!”
3. “But do you understand, do you,do you?”
4. “why have a dog and bark yourself?”
5. “Just do it!”

Firstly, i’d like to address these statements!

1. Unfortunately i could bring you the moon on a stick and it would still disappoint you due to the-angle-of the-moon being wrong, the stick is to far in the moon,the stick is the wrong diameter, the moon isn’t right, you wouldn’t of placed the stick in that area of the moon!! I know a great place for the stick..

2. This will never happen. Period. Its been 4 years and you’ve even perfected a disappointment noise, need i say more!

3. I speak English and require proper instructions, sometimes your instructions come out like this……

Right, i need you to do this for me *shoves model in my face*

OK what do you need doing to it?

Just do itttttt, get on with ittttt!!! * disappointment noise*

But seriously……

God do i have to tell you everything? * disappointment noise*

Well, yes *blank look from me*

Take it away and make it look nice! Make me proud

*Walnut Jam, that’s an incredible idea!*

Now, go away with your crazy nails and your crazy hair, i’m looking at her *points to women on laptop* *weird noise*

*She can’t make jam as good as me - BITCH!*

4. Well, you tell me? Why would you have a dog and bark yourself!? This particular saying i often take to heart. Is he referring to me as a dog? Seriously do i look like fucking Lassie, cocking my leg on the benches and shitting in corners?             The Littlest bloody Hobo running around the country like The Annika Rice of the dog world! Get a grip son!

5. We are not in Nike commercial no matter how important you think you are!

                                          

I understand i’m not perfect and doubt very much that i ever will be but i do often stress to him that i’m a trainee, a person in training, a person who does not have all the answers, i’m not a robot, i make mistakes and will continue to through my life BUT i will learn from them one being to advise my off spring not to become a dental technician!

Fair doos, i have put just about everything into my furnace and cooked it at 980 degrees, asked silly questions, not done things correctly, forgotten to do something but i have done good in all that time as well!

• I’m good with the camera
• I’m good with the computer
• Love to organize ANYTHING
• I’ve tidied and organized him  **massive achievement**
• I can book in and book out
• Cover in other ares of the workplace
• I’ve got a great telephone voice :)
• I bake stuff now and again and i make what he would like!
• Answer his phone when he’s not there!
• Even booked him a hair appointment!
• I’m aware of his likes and dislike in most areas of his life
• Know all his hobbies
• His weekly exercise routine
• I laugh at his rubbish jokes
• Take shit from him when its not even my fault
• Stick up for him (when necessary )
• I tell him when his hairs to long
• Tell him if the top he is wearing is too young! (regular occurrence )
• And i still say “Have a nice night, see you tomorrow!” even if i’m going home to whale uncontrollably at something he has said!

But most importantly i’ve also come along way from the days where something didn’t even look like a tooth!

And this believe it or not is where the stories began..

Now, trying to explain something you get extremely pent up about in a diplomatic manor is often very hard so stay with me.

                               

If myself, Paw Paw and Jo turned up to work like this i would say they had cause for concern, but guess what “WE DON’T”!!

We turn up in regular cars in a regular uniform and from what i can gather moderatly happy untill we push that special key through that little whole!

At that precises moment in time, something happens, something changes! It seems my life, dental passion, self motivation, self confidence, reason for being just “PUFF-BY THE LIGHT OF THE MOON!” Its gone!!

So as i enter work this becomes my first step of imagining my dream life; i’d love to make Jam and live in France, pretty simple life! I’ve thought of numerous names for my jam and i concluded with “Hills Jam” a private dedication to someone i love dearly :)

And i’m not alone Paw Paw would flower arrange, she thinks about the waterfall effect, creating it from top to bottom,tapering flowers and sensual scents wafting though the air with a continuing radiating smile of happiness and fulfillment!

And Small would make cakes! Shes great at cake making and i reckon one day she’ll be famous with her cakes! Seriously Betty Crocker….move over bitch!

So yes, I go to my bench feeling good about the Jam, make some drinks, talk with the troops about last nights TV and then its 10am which is break time. Normally by this time one of us has sent or received a mandatory text asking for a miracle, escape or help or more commonly its just an informative text that suicide by 5pm is imminent! 

                             

I’d say by 10:45am after a few warm up jabs from the boss, a petty comment from a coworker i’m onto designing my Jam label as i would have been promptly informed by my boss that I’ve disappointed him in some way, inadvertently told him to tell me something again that he has told me a million times and now the world has ended and gone to rat shit and only apes and cockroaches will rise from the dust all because of me! All i can say is, i’m powerful, be careful!

Oh for the record,my jam label is amazing, retro chic with a French twist! In the words of Gary Barlow “Absolutely a-ma-zing!” I’m wasted in dentistry, i’d say Jam labeling is what its all about!

                            

I’m becoming side tracked with jam apologies. Where was i,oh yes, living in the bubble to escape the realities of the work place!

One thing i did ask my friends was “Does your boss give you shit about me?” It was a unanimous yes! i could not believe it, how much relief did i feel!

My wonderful boss takes it upon himself to tell me how fit, more intelligent, fit, better technicians,fit and oh yeah fit Paw Paw and Small are at least once every 72 hours! When Small was telling me her about her boss i was thinking, come on you work for my boss right? Which led me to believe this has to be a man thing right or a boss dental man thing!? I mean you would think we were all talking about the same person, it was scary! Do they just get to this position and feel they can treat you like this and say this kind of stuff to you?

Ahh but i did think of something pretty cool! 

If Smalls boss think Paw Paw and I are fit bits and mine thinks Small and Paw Paw are then Paw Paw’s thinks Small and I are then were all FIT!!

AND

If Smalls boss thinks Paw Paw and I are better than her and mine thinks Small and Paw Paw are than me then Paw Paw’s thinks Small and I are, then were all AMAZING TECHNICAINS!!

Whats the problem according to them we are all fit and amazing!

But the one thing that got to us all was the amount of rubbish and hurtful crap we had to put up with.

By telling us something is rubbish by making a show of us in the work environment its not going to make us excel to the great heights and expectations they have for us!

Some one removing yourself confidence and destroying you as a person whether they want to admit it or not will not motivate you and its certainly not character building, you will not want to give your all and you certainly won’t want to give anything more than you need to!

Bullying is a harsh word but we forget that it comes on many scales and which ever way you look at it; by what ever measure its hapening to us.

I work well and improve through praise, by someone giving me 5 minutes of there time to tell me the good points and the bad points in an adult way.

By someone nurturing my confidence and harnessing my skills you will create something better and amazing.

Teasing someone about there apperance, the way they talk, about there hobbies, the way they might organize there draws is not character building its demoralizing.

Is it because we work in such a close environment we feel we can cross those lines and those boundaries?

Why should i wake up and think only of the days horrible events to come, the fact i will disappoint someone, is what i’m wearing going to create unwanted attention, will something on a social networking site make me anymore weird today? 

So I will go into work tomorrow and i would have and will do something to disappoint my boss, 

He never will have any confidence in me, I will never have any in myself, he never will show me that he does actually like me being there cause he loves to tease me, he will never actively tell me i’ve done a good job, he will never tell me i’m part of the team, he will never hear or listen to what i have to say, he will never treat me as an equal, he will never talk to me like an adult, he will never embrace me when i cry because of something he said

But he will be the something that pushes me to achieve, he will be the person i can say i told you so too, he will be the one thing that when i think things are tough i’ll look back on and say “this is nothing”, he will continue to be my inspiration and driving force in order to push myself and achieve and he will always always be the man who i cried the most over!

You know, i’m gazing out of my window now, i’m so lucky and blessed i have a pair of amazing friends and fantastic jam ideas and you know what i can’t be that bad cause he still shares food with me! :)

                                 

Wednesday Already!

Hello!

Well, i can't believe its already Wednesday I'm back at Uni tomorrow, the dreaded 5.30 wake up call. I'm surprised i mange to dress myself the state i'm in when i wake up!
God, then the train, free bus and orthodontics!!!!

Its going to be so much fun this year, lacerating myself on wire and talking all pivots and rotations! Are these teeth retroclined or proclined!? Why don't you tell me, your the teacher, your in charge as you keep reminding us!!!!

You know the thing that gets to me the most...the tutor taking us this year persists in calling me "Rachelle" its like he knows how much it grates on me, I HATE IT, it makes me feel so uncomfortable, seriously reminds me of times with braces that dug in shredding my oral tissues, i still have scares to this day! Oh god and really bad 80's glasses, the days before hair dye and frizz control products!
The thought of it makes me shudder i can still hear my riding teaching whilst i was bashing my prepubescent lady bumps on the saddle of a mamouth beast they call a horse!

"Rachellllllllleeeeee, gracefully girl, we must keep grace and decorum at all times if we require a marriage invitation, come on come along!"

God i hated riding, i would rather have taken extra Latin.....honestly!

So events of Wednesday, oh i had a mini adventure to the petrol station this morning at 8.10am, thought i was going to be faced with the que from hell but surprisingly i was the only one there, had to double take because i thought they were closed but then i thought, maybe i missed the pre-VAT fill up!

VAT VAT VAT thats all i here at the moment,but lets up it into context its £2.50 in £100 however will we cope? How about cutting out your luxury mocha chocha fhar fhar coffee once a week or, you know what, i can't even be bothered to go on!

WORK: Only stayed the morning at work cause i finished my work, so i came home, did a bit of tidying and cleaning and spent time with my mum!

Just for an interesting fact, my dog is currently sleeping standing up, she's so weird but i'd say thats a right skill!

Well, to finish off  i'm going to partake in a fruit tea with maybe a bikkie or too, brush my teeth, then off to bed!

Night xxx

SONY 0 - Shelly 1

Thats right friends i put my Dad on the case and that babies closed!! He got a full refund so i'm back on the camera market!

Welcomed Back.....

"It's almost like you work for me!" That was the pre 10am comment from my boss, bless him.....lol.....It was my first day back to work today after the festive period, the day we totally exhaust our smiling festive face, repetitively wish each other a Happy New Year and "owww what did you get for Christmas?"

To be blunt, i did 't get your presents so therefore i'm not actually that bothered unless there slightly cool and your selling them off cheap then the thrifty Meerkat in me will stand to attention!!

So, work was work, mild banter, few rounds of tea, lunch consisting of rice and curry sauce in a bid to satisfy my taste buds that were tantalised by Sean's special fried rice i got a good whiff of on exit, more banter, more rounds of tea..............home time!
Oh, amidst this i did do some work and Toc cleaned the lights, i've never seen so much dust or dead wasps maybe that was so because its annual event, i was tempted to put one in my furnace just to see what happens but i did promise to preform correct usage of the actual furnace during 2011.

We also came to the conclusion that after next year (2012) we will no longer be able to have a same number date eg. 11.11.11 so 12.12.12, 13's gonna be a bitch!

Any more work news? Not really.......so tonight events included, blogging and baking :)
I've already cooked a batch of chocolate muffins which are cooling and there is currently 2 batches of almond muffins in the "little love box", thats what "I" call my oven!

I'm afraid nothing really exciting to report today, got a bank statement, had fish and chips for tea, oww i'm wearing my new apron whilst blogging to, its very fetching heres a picture!

See you tomorrow Shelly xxx

EARTHQUAKE BABY!!!

Ripon just had an earthquake, 3.5 on the scale and we even made sky news!!
Now if thats not blogging news i don;t know what is!!